bravestar311

finally

2006-07-31T03:41:09Z

my star is finally done it , well almost , she is at home now spending some quality time with her little girl
i hope she is alrught tonite when she is alone , when her littl one is with her daddy
i know she is doing what is right for her daughter , no more fighting no more arguing screaming
i am worried about her i know how she is , doubting herself , wondering.......
i feel like i am part of what made her leave , i have a very good idea about that
hopefully everythinrg will be ok , i know it is the right thing
be strong ,know that you are right
do this for the little one ,it will help alot more than it will ever hurt , one day you will thank yourself and know beyond adoubt that it was right , when she finds someone unlike her daddy that wont be her boss , that will be her companion , someone that will listen to her , not drown her out and ignore her
when she walks down the isle with the man she will marry ,when she is a strong happy woman , she might not know why , but we all will
a star alone in the sky is always the brightist , be HER star be the brightest , the strongest

soon

2006-07-24T05:52:58Z

soon we will be together , soon we will be happy
soon it will all be over , soon we can always be what we wanted
never will i leave my star
never can i be without you
never will you be alone
never will we have to worry about us again
these are the thoughts i have in my head , you will be out soon , i will be soon after , we will be together , our kids will have to have some explaining , some understanding , but will be better off
after your stuff is final and setteled down , mine will start
but untill then remember you are forever in my heart , there is no problem to big , or small , we are always together in our spirit
we will make it through this better than ever
i am so excited about what is in our future it is what we make it , we will make it the most wonderful thing we could ever imagine

bravestar311 @ 2006-07-03T18:22:00

2006-07-03T22:30:31Z

i dont know who reads this hopefully somebody hopefully somebody that will message me back ,
star pretty much did the unthinkable
we were talking on the phone , she was hanging up , said i love u
as always ,
for that fact she does that with everybody
her hubby heard her say that
then instead of denying she told him , who she was talking to
he didnt get the whole story , but never the less
it just feels awful , i cant talk to her at all
the next day they went out , too store , out to eat , gone all day
she told me he knew , he was sitting at home drinking with his brother in law
im at home with my little one wondering what the hell
not scared of him or them,but not in front of my baby ,
nothing came of it , not yet
it just feels like its done , it feels like it almost has to be
its a fucking war because wifey is MAD at her too
so if she thinks im talking to her , it blows up
that kind of puts the hole situation on a higer alert
shes still there , not leaving ,
puts me in a helluva spot
just when everything is in a good place, i dont understand
im more mad at her then ever , but sad as hell
i cant do this forever , sitting here crying like a bitch , but what do i do ??
i cant put her in front of my baby , all this arguing in front of her isnt good
what am i doing to stars family ??
her little one , what do u do shes not prepared to leave
not at all
ive always told her i couldnt , cause of my kid , not an excuse the truth!!!!!!!
wifey knew let it happen even joined in
it was ok untill she told him
why ?
why tell him and stay ??
i feel like there is no fixing it with wifey
about this
there is no going back , what the fuck what am i supposed to do
need some GOOD advice
not support her like always do what u can , please think about it put yourself in my position
its been 5 years , i feel like it gonna come down to a desiscion
star or my baby
i dont think shell ever leave , but i really care about her and her little one to what the world to do
my life sucks cause i made it suck , i understand that
star is my best freind
this really fucking sucks star why?
any comments welcome

??????????????????

2006-07-03T06:53:58Z

what going on star???????
what is your plan?????????
what the fuck??
explain

bravestar311 @ 2006-06-29T02:20:00

2006-06-29T06:21:46Z

by the way star what is your secret ??

bravestar311 @ 2006-06-29T02:05:00

2006-06-29T06:19:43Z

* I miss somebody right now.
* I don't watch much TV these days.
* I own lots of books. [But I never have time to read any of them!]
* I wear glasses or contact lenses.
* I* I've tried marijuana.
love to play video games.
* I've watched porn movies.
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* I think prostitution should be legalized.
* I slept with a roommate.
* I have a hidden talent.
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* I have a lot of friends.
* I have pecked someone of the same sex. [Pecked? WTH is that?]
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* I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
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* I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.
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* I have big interest swings every year.
* I have loved Pokemon since the beginning and continue to do so.
* There's no genre of music I dislike.
* I've read every work written by my favorite author(s)
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* I'd rather eat out than cook.
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* I can move my little toes independently.
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* I trip over my own feet at least once a week.
* I hate not knowing how to love
* I still fantasize once in a while about an ex.
* I find incredible freedom in being restricted.
* I love being housebound in a blizzard.
* I am compulsive with money.

STOP

2006-06-05T05:25:21Z

star you need to stop.
you worry far too much
just stop it , quit pushing ,

hmmmm

2006-05-30T18:42:51Z

5 years..........

hmmm

2006-05-30T05:22:14Z

you know , i guess its alright to doubt , to question . i doubt alot of things , most things . right now i doubt it all , from star to god
she calls today says they r doing yardwork , talking about redoing there bathroom, because there is a big crack in the wall , kind of prophetic huh , i know she loves me , she calls tonight i hear him asking her about calling , i told her to forget if its that big of a deal. i dont know just doesnt sound like someone who wants to leave , redoing there bathroom , shit like that . i would never ask her to leave , never . but i wish she would be honest with me , and herself.
it gets tiresome planning stuff around him , calls everything . just completely draining . she is my bestfreind , the one i wanted to be with , but it is what it is , part time , part time only
it is hard to be the "master" impossible , she says she belongs to me but he tells her what to do , all the time , sometimes i wonder ..................................
i wonder alot , how far would i have to run to get away from it all
what would i do , how would it feel
i think she should call him master not me
im more like a , borrower , something like that
i know i shouldnt doubt somethings
but would you ?

this is more often then not

2006-05-23T06:09:27Z

im sitting here all alone , star is at her home playing happy wife ,maybe not happy but wife none the less . my wifey is at work , i am here all alone , sometimesgood usually bad .dont like to be alone thinking about what she is doing with him , laying in bed with him she always contends that she hates him ???? but she jumps at his every whim
always does what he says ,then as some of you have read the family too
there alot of things i cant change , some i can ,i feel like im alot older than i am , i feel like im getting tired , tired of the fight , she is my star , one i wish for , but so far away , always far away
but anyway , go back to work tomorrow or today depending how u look at it . too all of you that are with the one you want to be , ill envy you forever , the rest of us are not that lucky . i always wonder if its worth the fight , i always come to the same conclusion , yes it is , but it is always the question , to my star youstill shine brightly , you just seem to be covered by clouds too often .i guess ill quit rambiling , try to cope , try to muddle through .

today

2006-05-22T05:12:03Z

had a good day today , got to spend just some regular time with star , only thing fucked it up was wifey was there
it always good to see what things could be
depressing to know that it will probably never be
havent been on alot lately just been busy
thanks for the comments , on mine and hers
will be back on more soon

?

2006-05-16T05:07:41Z

i dont know what to say , should have kept my mouth shut , wht the fuck was i thinking ?? think i will crawl back in my hole and stay i never meant to hurt , i never wanted to tell im just a human full of mistakes , i wish ..........
doent matter i dont guess

never another

2006-05-08T08:55:56Z

to my dear sweet stargazer
there will never be another ,
not another as close as you
not another as right as you
your fears are oh so unfounded
you cannot be replaced , substituted for
you are the one star in my sky ,
the apple of my eye
you are the best friend i could ever have
i wish we were together every hour every day
we have so much in common , so many years to stand on
ive been hurt by somethings , so have you ,
i dont know if we are even or not
i dont care , i just want it to be like before
talk about everything laugh , have fun
we are not getting any younger , lets make the best of the time we have
be gllad we met , or we would suffering alone
you will always be mine ,
i too am yours , i dont want to be your master as much your equal
i want to know what you think , your opinion ,
thats what makes it interesting , its fun to play that way ,
i want that complete person , you can trust me , beyond all trust
as i already do you

star light , star bright ,
i wish upon every star i see tonight
that my precious little stargazer
will have a good , happy night
i am not there in body , as i wish i could be
i hope , i hope , that today you will see
we may not be together , we are so far apart
you are always with me , deep in my heart
our love is bigger , then we even know
its like a little flower , water it let it grow
it may only be our spring , but summer will follow
it will bloom and bloom and become so beautiful ,
winter will seem so far away
stronger because of it , but so far away

a long time

2006-05-01T05:39:58Z

it feels like it has been a thousand days since you left, willit always be this way?
i think you should have been punished very harshley , it didnt happen , dont know why i didnt , kinda wish i would have , but i just didnt , i dont think you can handle some things , so im really not sure how far to take it . wish i did . cant tell , thought i knew before but we know how that worked out . dont want to push you over the edge , but i dont know where that is .at some point you need this , at some point you dont ,but since you think you do ...................
it will be , you will do as i say when i say , no questions
everyday u will have a task ,
since you wont get this untill today tomorrow you will wear a skirt no panties follow meet me here instead of for breakfast
check your email , i think youll like that pic

my letter to 11

2006-04-29T21:51:00Z

dear 11,
its been a long week , thought about alot of things . realized where i wanna be who i wanna be with , iknow it willnever happen quite the way it should , i guess it will just be the way it is for now . the past is exactly that the past , yeah there is things you wanna know , but the things you have done to piss me off , the things i thought i should do are over . im still here , and all of that is done , i wish five years would dissappear and we could doit all over . bt that just cant happen. we havemade it through alot . so we know we are ok , we always will be . the rocky times are over , wehave only the future to look forward to it will have to be better right? let the past die quit dwelling on that , concentrate on what can and will happen , do that and i thoink we r ok , qiut doubting me , i know "its not you " , yeah it is . there is no doubting to do . eventually it will be ok . i missed you alot im glad you are back . lets move forward not back
458
always

guilty

2006-04-25T03:47:30Z

i dont know if ther is a third day or not but...
have you ever felt guilty about anything
i find myself feeling guily going to see her sometimes
kinda fucking up wifey , has to kinda her choice too though
my baby shes at home im not and could be
just feel guilty sometime

dont get me wrong i wouldnt change anything for the world it has got to this point , i guess for a reason
i just wish it was different . hopefully one day it will be , hopefully it will all work out
all i can do is hope , thats all i really have left , sitting here waiting on a text message that her real master wont see or hear
hope she is ok
i know you cant read this , or hear a word i say
lay your head on your pillow , have a sweet dream for me
thats how we can be together , only in our hopes and dreams

crushed

2006-04-25T03:36:38Z

the second day i remember so well was the day she told me she was pregnant
it was like the world fell apart
i knew it was his no doubt about it
she told me at work , what would you do ??
told her i would never leave , i would never go anywhere
i had my doubts all along
i loved her then like i do now
she had lost a couple before
a vey bad thing
she did everything possible to have this one
all the while saying she hated him , i understand why but still u have your doubts
she had a beautiful little girl , now i knew it would be a long time maybe never before we would ever be together
mixed feelings confused as hell the one i wanted was right in front of me , just with someone else
i guess thats why i asked wifey to marry me she was ok with her knew about dam near everything , that way i could have both
along came a baby of my own , had quite a struggle with that one
i wouldnt give her up for anything , now i knew i was done ...
still i could have both , baby and her
just not together.

day one

2006-04-25T03:23:48Z

havent had a chance to post eyes all around
the first day.........
she is gone , gong with him on vacation
seems kinda strange to say that , onvacation did it for the little one i guess
that is always what is said , left me a couple messages , didnt want to go ,wish i was there
kinda makes you wonder , , ive always said its easier for the woman , they can take there kid
get paid , even get help if need be
not that easy for me , had a BIG fight the other night i know all i can do is be alone
kinda wish i was kinda wish it all would end , she could be happy with him , everything she wanted , house kid , all the things she ever wanted. then she met me
huh , good
i doubt it , one of her friends reads this , she would probably know better then me .
if i never existed you think she would be happy??
i do
not that i regret anything but i do think she would
the first day was rough made me think about , the first day i remember .
all the hope , all the excitement
i remember making some kind of comment on the phone abotu its true its true , seems kinfda silly now i guess . the way we were was such a great thing
never a doubt , never a question
i wish i could go back , i wish it could be that way
i know i cant , it would have been so easy then so easy
but you cant go back in time
now its to late , i get tired of being in the romantic tragedy, tired of my life being planned around her true master
i wouldnt leave her for the world but it gets so hard
when im at work friday worried about her ,shes going to fucking disney world , the happiest place on earth
i dont think ill ever find a happy place mytime for that is done
i cant leave my little girl , i just cant
her beautiful little blue eyes her long blonde hair
no matter what, what i say or do she loves me anyway
i cant take her with me , i guess thats why i stay
hopefully shell bloom into something great , have a wonderful life
aslong as she doesnt notice me withering away

i miss you as much as a person can ,
talked to almost as much as the days when he is here
anyway i guess thyats all for now
its about all i can stand

bravestar311 @ 2006-04-17T23:31:00

2006-04-18T04:10:57Z

she wonders if ill miss her
she wonders if ill do something else
for those of u that wonder here is the story
5 years ago , me and wifey were having all kinds of problems
i met someone that i thought would be my way out and not to be alone someone to happy with
well , when you areat work one day and your savior, wooden jesus if you will , comes and tells you she is pregnant , its not yours ,
how would you feel , said she hated the son of a bitch , its his
how would you feel , she said she was staying for her daughter.
how would you feel , she says she is leaving now for the same reason
how would you feel , she said once to be careful before we did anything ,soshe would know whos it was
how would you feel , your father kills himself smoking ,
how would you feel , when you find out your "dreamgirl" is smoking , but she says its no big deal
how would you feel , she tries to kill herself never calls untill its over
how would you feel , hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
i lover her to death ,
ill miss her alot
ill miss her none
i wish things were different
iwish i could change things
i know i cant
they are goingon vacation , i know they will have fun
i will be here to ponder, to cope
i dont want to tell her anything i have done
i know you willl read this
yeah there is a very good chance i have "strayed"
the way i lookedat it was coping no strings
mad at the time
see above
inever felt better to feel worse about something
i always wanted things to change
but now i wonder if it is a good idea
as long as she stays with him she not as at risk
financially ,
maybe it would be the best thing for her daughter too
i really dont want anything bad for either one
i cant leave my daughter
i just cant
wifey knows it all , allows it to happen
to some degree i think she cares alot or none at all
its a fucked up situation , i wouldent recommend it for anyone
what do u do ???
i will stay as long as i can , endure what i must
change what i can
muddle through the rest
yeah ill miss u , more than you know
no i wont do anything else ,
just dont have the desire to really
if i did i still wouldnt
some thigs about you i have learned to hate
dont like to se you hurt
but most of all i do love you
i do i do
just wish it could have been different
but it will always be no matter what you do or dont do
always

these are your orders

2006-04-04T06:42:34Z

here are my instructions for you
after 12 pm you are to call me master
if i ask a question you are to answer me ...... ----- master
no matter where you are or what you are doing
you can call me only if i tell you to.
you have to ask permiision to go to the bathroom , but you cant call
to work tomorrow you are to wear a skirt of your choice , no underwear i will check
i will drink alot of water tomorrow so be very thirsty
when i come over you will have the same skirt on , but with your boots
when i come in you will bow at my feet , and untie my boots with your mouth
pull the strings with your teeth ,like a good little bitch
dont take to long . pull off my socks
start washing my feet with your tougne , all over untill i tell you to stop
between my toes , do it well
i will blindfold you , then you will follow my instructions . open your smartass
mouth
take in whatever you get
then you will suck my cock
lick my balls, my ass , then i think u need to spanked for all that you have done wrong , you will beg me to stop , over and over , i will have you bent over sucking my cock , beg with your mouthfull , ill have control of your head
if you gag , i dont care , if you vomit , you will clean it up , ill spank your ass with my belt , better make the begging convincing. next you will stand before ask me master what shall i do now?? you will get on top of me and stick my cock up your ass , if you did a good job earlier i might let u use some lube maybe.......
you ride that for awhile then you will
go down on me again , i think ill slap you a little , taste your ass, smack you in the face you will ride your toy like you would ride someone else , dont enjoy it too much . then ill roll you over and fuck you from behind . first me then my hand , toy , whatever is close , then ill put you on your back , spit in your face tell you how bad you have been . you like that , just like being truckers bitch , ohh that pisses me off , couple extra licks for that a lot hareder though , cater to him again it will be worse . if thats possible
he is not your master i am , remember that . the more that you do that the closer your ultimate punishment comes . yep thats right , and you would deserve it
just before i cum you will go down on me and swallow every drop keep in your mouth untill i tell you you can stop . you better hope that i dont start all over
after i get there you cant answer the phone , when you call him my cock has to be in you the whole time ,i wouldnt tell him youlove him . you will do this
then you will become mine not his , you think i will be quite hmmmmm
maybe maybe not
your punishment for being out of town will be as follows
i think i shallprogress each day with someone a little more
ill put it in here exactly what was said
done
brushed up against her she felt my cock , you know something like that
how far will it go
hmmm we will see
and you wont be able to read it
it will be here the whole time
what will happen ??
i think your paranoa will run wild , you cant ask me anythinng about it
you will have to wait to read it yourself
you are not allowed to speak on it at all no matter what happens you will be gone . you shall be serving him not me . thats the ultimate insult to ones master.
the stars are always prettier over the ocean
how will stargazer be at the ocean???

RAIN!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-03T08:21:40Z

Raining here thundering and lighting mmmmm always made me so horney!!now the one thing i need ,, not fucking here. but she will be soon ...... maybe
if she was here , when i have that chance , ill tell her to go outside in the pouring down rain , it dripping down her tits , running down her huge swollen clit , get her in the middle of the yard not surronded by anything , ohh huge lighting strike i think she is scared , that only makes it better , tell her to pull out my hard cock , thunder claps , shes jumps i just laugh , are you scared??? i dont care , i tell her to suck my cock like the good little bitch she is , oh yeah thats right rain , lighting , her with those big green eyes looking up at me , feels like she is finally worshiping me like a good little
bitch . boom , shes jumps again biting ever so slighty , i grab her hair , slap her and tell her , i didnt tell u to do that!! i turn her around make her bend over and fuck her hard , she starts moaning , shes liking it too much , i grab a handfull of hair , and ram my hard cock up her ass ohh!! she wasnt expecting that , just about that that time booommm oh yes how does it feel , scared with a dick up your ass?? the rain starts pouring down now , the lighting is more frequent , thunder is louder , her ass feels so good . i slap her ass , again and again , i turn her around shove my cock in her mouth , she looks at me again , with those big green eyes . i start to cum , ohh there goes the lighting again , just so i can see her swallowing , and loving it . thats a good little bitch you have done your god so well ............

First post

2006-04-03T04:47:22Z

since this is my first post i guess i should explain. our situation is kind of unique i met hmmm i guess ill call her "stargazer" at work . knew she was different . wont get in to the whole story , but , 5 years later , a couple of kids later . (not with each other) , we have a strange relationship , we are both married , my wife "wifey" knows , stargazers hubby "dumbmothertrucker" has no idea . she wants to leave , and is afraid. anyway we have alot of time together . we like to get experimental . everything , anything . opur last thing is to video tape ourselves 2 at a time and show it the third . just started that its seems to be really goood so far . i think the only way it would be better is if the people could be different "stargazer" would never agree . she wants me to be her master , tell her what to do make her feel possesed . make her mine . im really going to try to do that , i think it might help her know that ill always be there . which is not a problem, she is a slighty paranoid person . that thinks it is . never would be "stargazer" may not be the only person i want to experiance but she is the only one i want to be with. i hope i perform like she wants . i have to get in that mindset .